July 17, 2023 | 01:06 AM (when I wrote it on my planner)
In all honesty, I am at that point of my life where I feel scared yet brave, both at the same time.
Scared because I am currently taking a (calculated?) risk.
Brave because I jumped and did it anyways…even if I am afraid (and experiencing imposter syndrome every now and then).
Right now is by far the moment where I felt the freest of my entirety.
Simply because, I let myself be.
I thought it was the society, the norms, or the unpreparedness that hindered me to take the path that I have always wanted.
Until I realized that is was only ME who kept my beliefs limited, thinking that it is impossible to do the unconventional and try to be that woman I always aspire of becoming.
Well, I am yet very far from my ideal her, but one thing that kept me going is that I realized it’s okay if I haven’t figure it all out…because apparently we all do. So, it’s normal to feel uncomfortable while getting my life together.
Now, I feel that I am like a liquid, free of its form. I can be who I wanted to be. I can start anew, even if it is way different from what I have started before. I feel that I can achieve things I then thought are impossible.
It’s been a long time since I last shared my thoughts here. Hmmm…how are you right now? Would be happy to read them in the comments! 🌿
That’s it for now. 🍃 Thanks for reading!
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